Drop-out.

I went round to my friend Louise's house yesterday evening, for a catch up and a glass of wine. In between talking about subjects such as Pelvic Floor Exercises, fat in food, farts and how we're going to be bossy old bitches one day, we came across the subject of education. More so, my resistance in seeing a course through til the end. I've avoided thinking about my false-starts over the past couple years...

In my A Levels, I got bored when there was half a year to go and changed my career plan. I stopped attending lessons but came to an agreement where I could hand coursework in and do the exams. I passed with little effort. I'd decided I wanted to do English Literature and Language A Levels at a different college for the following academic year. 3 weeks in I'd had enough. Cue a year of working and not doing much else at all. My next idea? To do a Fashion Styling degree! 2 months in I decided I had nothing in common with these aspiring Gok Wan's who were my peers. I dropped out. I had 2/3 months to re-apply to University before the deadline, I went with Journalism. This is what I intended on doing when I started the English A Levels but got sidetracked by Vogue and fabric swatches.

I don't know where I got the notion to do Fashion. Look at me. I listen to music such as; Black Flag, Descendants, Fugazi, Cro-Mags, Life Of Agony, X-Ray Spex, Four Walls Falling, Against Me!, Betrayed, This Bike Is A Pipe Bomb...BLAH BLAH. I'm vegan. I shave my head. I go to protests. I drink cheap cider and rosé. I get sweaty and bruised at punk gigs. I have more interest in QI and politics than "What Not To Wear". I'd rather bake Brownies and read zine's, than be Size Zero and read Elle... OBVIOUSLY I am not a "fashionista". By any meaning of the word. I make an effort with clothes, but I don't follow trends. My favourite outfit is various band t shirt's and a high-waisted skirt, sometimes I alternate with leggings. Don't think that one's on Vogue's 'hot list' right now.

What I'm getting at is that, there's been a definite trend of impulsive ideas that don't get followed through. And not just education wise. Impulse is good but I've got to get a grip, find my true calling. I know that this time I MUST stick it out. I WILL get that piece of paper at the end. I WILL work hard. Though I don't particularly want to be a Journalist, I want to get a zine up and running and am definitely more interested in the DIY side of writing, music, lifestyle, etc. I just think a Journalism Degree is a good link to other areas of interest such as PR. I'm going to "get into" booking and promoting bands over summer and carry this on (I enjoy and have a knack for it it and received compliments, so, no harm in trying), as well as begging for work experience in as many different areas as I can throughout Uni. I think this will set me up well for some sort of Music PR/Events job?

I'm thinking this one through, for the first time ever. Hear that Lou?! x.