I wanna be with you everywhere...

I'm fed up of feeling so lame. I have no job and it doesn't seem like I will any time soon. I feel like everybody is too wrapped up in their own lives - and why shouldn't they be? I'd give anything to be that happy - to realise how bad a time I'm having. I know I'm feeling sorry for myself and sound full of self pity, but that's because I am, I fully do feel sorry for myself because I've been dealt the shittiest cards lately. I can't cope with the constant let-downs and false hope. I was so happy a few months ago, until it all got pulled from under me. Why are other people able to make decisions that affect your life a hundred times more than it does theirs? I have nothing to look forward to, I feel like a massive failure and like I'm completely alone in all of this. It's just never going to end.