12/03/2009

How could you compromise yourself like this.

Why do girls make things so complicated? I didn't think I was a complicated or needy girl, but it turns out I must be.

Why do women have to get so serious, so soon? Why do we lack the vital ingredient ALL men seem to have that makes them play it cool, by default? Is it an instinctive or a learnt role that compels us to mentally plan the kitchen wall colour after 3 months? Do we truly have the wife and home-maker duties instilled into us without realising? Find guy, keep guy. Why can’t we find guy, enjoy guy? These questions are swimming through my head right now.

So what if, because you spend a lot of time together, have plenty of fun, miss him when he‘s not around, there’s great "perks" etc., he’s not declaring his love for you after mere weeks?! In all honesty, if he did that I would seriously run for the hills. The whole thing would lose it’s appeal.

How come, when I know how I’d react, I know I don't want him to love me (yet?), and I know exactly what I want from it, have I felt the need to push it? I feel quite silly.

I'm forcing myself to change my mind-set, to be more comfortable with situations I can't control, situations I shouldn't even want to control. I'll let things take their own course. I like things as they are, I like what it is. Time for me to relax about the whole thing and just enjoy it.

Because, I really am enjoying it.

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